about the site
I suppose it all started in with deviantART in ... oh, about 2004. That's when I joined the site, and I found all the fantastic site layouts there. My first site was a Dir en grey fansite, crappy as all beginning sites are. I got addicted to weblaying though, and learned HTML and CSS.
After I had hosted a lot of sites on various places (geocities, cjb, freewebs) I got sick of having them on servers that went down, and were so horrible that half of the time I couldn't even upload or update the site. I never wanted to be hosted, I always wanted my own domain. I didn't want to have to rely on someone that might be unreliable, you know, because I am a freak like that.
I talked to my mum about getting my own domain, and she was fine with it as long as I had the money to pay for it. So I looked all over online and found POWWEB and bought a domain for a year, lucky DOLLY {dot} NET. I like having it, it went well. But I wanted another domain for my prose and my blog, so I bought aishuu {dot} ORG.
the name
a - i - shu - u [eye-shoe]
哀愁
noun
1. pathos
2. sorrow
3. grief
I went with grief.
zo - n - me - i [zohn-may]
存命
noun
1. being alive.
previous versions
version one.
now you feel so ALIVE {{{{{ am i alive? }}}}}
Featuring Kyo of the band Dir en grey.